i'm so fuckin paranoid it scares me. every time something good happens to me i think it's gonna disappear for no apparent reason. i don't even have a reason to be scared, but i still am. and i miss him a lot. it sucks we live far from eachother. ::sigh:: i kinda wanna tell him how i feel about him and stuff so he knows i care. i dunno, i'm an idiot. i'm just scared to lose him.
and i dunno why i get so annoyed with my mom. it's so fucking much. i've been waiting for like 2 hours to wash my stupid clothes and she keeps throwing fucking clothes in there. i'm like, "can i wash my clothes now." and she's like, "no." and i'm like, "why." and she's like, "because i have a lot of loads to do." and i'm like [in the calmest voice possible], "this really makes me mad." goddddd. i kinda went off on her today too. i told her it seems like every time i try to joke around with either her or somebody else she has to fucking say something. and i was getting soo fuckin mad and she just like walked away. god damnit and i know she knows i'm right, that's why she can't fucking say shit to me. ahhhh whatever. sorry i'm just getting really annoyed by shit lately.
i guess i'm off.